April 13th, 2025

It has been 11 years since I wrote anything on the blog. I just got involved in the day to day events. So much has happened since that last post. Way to much to write about and I would rather go forward then behind. 

I started to live in a different season in my life. Pat and I raised Cassidy for almost 14 years. Chris and his wife separated about four years ago and Chris came to live with us. He and Cassidy have become a family again. I can't say it's been easy but it is good. They live in our house and Pat and I are renting an apartment near our camper. (We did buy a camper in 2017, so Cassidy could enjoy the outdoors.) We keep our camper in a seasonal spot. We've met the nicest people and they have become like family for us. Sadly, Cassidy has outgrown the desire to be with us at the camper. Maybe that will change but for now this is her decision and we respect it. She is with her dad and that is so important. They have grown in their relationship and much to my surprise do well without me. People ask does that hurt you and my answer is "No." This is what I have hoped for. This is natural. I needed to see this because I am at the age that needs peace knowing they're able to take care of themselves when I am no longer able to or in my permanent home....heaven.

So Pat and open a new chapter in our lives. It's been about nine months since we moved here. I love it. It's in the country but close enough to get to the things we like and need. Friends stop over and we socialize often with them. 

I am only a phone call away if Chris and Cassidy need me. Cassidy is happy to have a Nana now. Not a Nana/Mom. Our relationship has also entered in to a new season. We talk now. FaceTime is a daily event and Goodnight, I love you closes the end of the day for us.

So here I am. Kinda alone for the first time in forever. 

I spend a lot of time crafting....I have a Her Cave. 

I don't know where this is going but I hope I can start blogging again....even if nobody ever see's it.

July 14, 2014

It has been a long time since I blogged. Not sure as to where this is going. I asked Jesus this morning what is my talent? What did Our Father have in mind for me as I was knitted in my mother's womb? I heard blog. Now I know that Jesus did not blog but maybe he is asking me to write. So hear I go. Maybe this was me speaking to me.....only time will tell.
This morning Boundaries is on my mind. I have never had healthy boundaries. I have been pretty much a wide open door or maybe like a swinging door. I have let everyone and everything in. Not all bad but tiring at times!
I am not even to good at setting boundaries for myself. Work has to come first, family and even shopping. I put off me time. I have to get everything else done before I can do something for me. Which doesn't happen to often because there is always something that needs to be done.
Some people seems to know how to balance their life. They don't get the guilties. I was raised that you are the last one. Everything comes before you. Right now I am eating lunch (3:46 pm) while I blog. Then clean the bathroom, sweep dog hair, plant a plant and then take a shower. I want to paint but could I live with myself for being so selfish. After all I don't work outside of the home now. Granddaughter is not here.....and the list goes on and on. Pathetic. I hear that knowing is half the battle.